For man to learn his lessons he must first subscribe to the school of life. In this school you learn to accept your mistakes and grow from them. You learn to not take your friends for granted, you learn to love your family. You’re able to distinguish between people who are worth your investment of time and people who aren’t. But mainly you find yourself, you find every piece of yourself that’s been broken out and strewn about. Instead of piecing yourself back together you learn that the concept of wholeness is in itself a concept of complete and utter separation from yourself and a connection to every other living thing in the universe. We are all part of that which once was and will one day be again.
You will be broken many times, you will cry and you will feel pain. You will experience the loneliness of deep space and the joy of a familiar reunion. And you will go through this process again and again until you realize that the notion and wisdom of the process of life and death and rebirth is also an optional illusion.
In what may seem like a flash of selfish delusion you will gather forth all of your will, you will gather together all of your desire and place your doubt and fear behind you. Astonishingly to yourself you will enter the final rebirth and experience liberation in the strangest absolution. Insanity will describe you to those around you that do not know you. Your familiars will stand in pure awe of your magnificent splendor. Your self described enemies will cower in fear.
With this knowledge, I know that I have entered the final synapse. I am barreling towards a glorious end. May my end produce a bright warm light for all to follow.
And the Universe said “I Love You, because You are Love. And the Dream was over, and the girl woke up from the Dream. And the girl began a new Dream. And she dreamed again, dreamed better. And the Girl was the Universe, and the Girl was Love. You are that girl.
Only I can see and understand the choices I’ve made. I hope one day you also understand…